For a long time in my life I was disappointed in humanity, how I was tested, treated and I felt as though I had a target on my back. I was bullied a lot as a child as many were. A lot of circumstances in my life, even as an adult. I would look around and notice no one standing up for me or for another. Whether it be conditions of society to fit in, culture, religion or just plain ignorance, people weren’t there for each other. At least I felt that for a long time. People and so called friends in competition instead of collaborations and families not talking it out. Girls were told to act a certain way or you were looked down on. I often thought I was trapped and so desperately wanted to be free from these restriction and chains. I wanted to be authentic, but how?? It seemed at every effort I was met with such distain. And while I would like to think I wouldn’t do those things to others, I’m humble enough to know I hurt people along the way too. My self worth was in the gutter. The problem was my self worth was attached to others view points of me. That is and always will be a dangerous thing. All along God was showing me a world that was not awakened yet, a world full of fake rules that they themselves didn’t follow. Based on religious man made belief systems to hold many of us in a fear state mentality. As time went on this “fake world” seemed so unfair and I became bitter about my circumstances. I wanted to disassociate and completely numb from the pain so I turned to drugs. I felt hopeless about humanity and where it was going. As I grew tired of a life on drugs and I was sick and tired of being sick and tired. I knew there had to be more to this life than this. I checked into a facility to get help. My whole life I believed in God but my relationship with him would grow. My heart had to heal and I made it a mission to learn more, love more, forgive more and pray. My life and my perception changes dramatically. I found myself not taking things personally. I raised my vibration to the point where people didn’t approach me in the matter as much anymore. I created boundaries, I practiced self love and I was living a more authentic life. God was showing me I had to create the world not "deal with it"There was God’s aura all around me and the homey spirit in me and it felt tremendous!!! Don’t get me wrong there were a lot of people that can be jealous of your light. But I was able to navigate with grace and love. My anger subsided and I was more at peace with who I was. I started seeing more good in the world, good in people and I became a healer . They say that when you heal yourself and then heal others. Today I study the universe and I give God all the glory. Because he was there the whole time. I just had to call for him. I had to trust him. Put all my worth, to him in the spiritual world because this 3d world is a very dense planet of polarizing people and energy.
He showed me things, he gave me visions of a new life and the best thing I did was turn to Jesus and never let another human decide my worth.
My agreement with God is that I would share my testimonies on how he healed my heart ! I hope you all can share your light with others too! Peace and blessings Nicole
Today I am a reiki energy healer and I create holistic jewelry. I want to reach as many people with my testimonies.
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